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New Mom Checklist for Maternal Mental Health Help

New Mom Checklist for seeking help for maternal mental health

I have the hardest time remembering what to say when I visit a doctor. During the days prior to my appointment I spend time thinking about the symptoms and/or feelings that I should address, but when I sit down and face her, much of it just floats away. The stress of that day presses in.  All that I need to get done distracts me. I'm probably checking my phone … [Read more...]

Sex When Motherhood and Mental Health Shut Me Down

Motherhood, Mental Health and Intimacy #themoodstrikes #ad

.  Intimacy.  These days passion is not something I feel comfortable talking about, much less blogging about. But in my heart, I know that I should, and I had this opportunity to open up for the #Collective Bias #TheMoodStrikes campaign, so I've decided to take the leap [insert horrible anxiety.] To be perfectly honest I've lost much of my drive, … [Read more...]

Do we smile at this kind of event? #SuicidePrevention

Suicide prevention walk opening ceremonies

Sunday was our big community walk for the American Foundation of Suicide Prevention here locally in Seattle. You may know I'm on a Board of Directors here in Washington State, so I was there as volunteer event staff, a new position for me. At last year's Seattle walk I was a volunteer handing out honor beads to attendees, and years past I raised funds and walked myself, or with a … [Read more...]

Avoid the Media and Reach Out

Lifeline English

There is so much sadness all over the internet today--as well as ignorance about mental illness and suicide--for me and for many who have either lost loved ones or who struggle themselves, it's really hard to read. The loss of a beloved public figure like Robin Williams is heartbreaking. We all feel as though we knew him. He spoke publicly about his own struggles with depression, and I know we all … [Read more...]

The Life Saver


I stayed up past 3am drawing something... I was so inspired and moved to be creating it that I just couldn't stop. I know some of you (but definitely not all of you) know I've been struggling in a manic phase. I saw my doctor just under 2 weeks ago and she completely revised my med doses because it was just getting out of hand. The not sleeping, the racing thoughts, the random bursts of … [Read more...]

What’s Happening: Suicide Prevention Week Sept 9-15


Next week is Suicide Prevention Week, with Tuesday Sept. 10th being World Suicide Prevention Day. I have a lot of things going on and wanted to share them with you in advance, in the hope that you will join us by participating in some way, whenever and however you can. There is true power in sharing our experiences and bringing the conversation about mental illness and suicide into the … [Read more...]

Saying the Words

saying the words

If there's one thing I've learned on this journey toward better mental health, its that when I am feeling bad, depressed, lonely, sad, angry or whatever my mood, saying those words--out loud--can truly help take away some of their power over me. Whether that means talking to a friend on the phone, or in an email, or in a private Facebook group, or in a blog post, or even as a tweet, putting … [Read more...]

You are Not Alone. Crisis Resources.


  If you are struggling, please reach out to a loved one or contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 800-273-TALK (8255) by phone or online, or worldwide visit Befrienders.org for resources in your area. I've also listed some crisis resources here. You do not have to be suicidal to reach out. Your pain is important because it is yours. Your life is important. Your … [Read more...]

Just Keep Swimming…


Yesterday I admitted my mental health is suffering. I felt so fortunate to get a quick appointment with my psychiatrist today. I truly am lucky that I can reach her quickly and schedule an appointment when I really need it. I know lots of mental health treatment does not go so smoothly. So with appointment in hand, I was feeling a bit more hopeful. After I published and shared yesterday, your … [Read more...]

Run Away

Running Shoe

Some days I want to run away from my life. Seriously. I bet at least one or two of you understand. Am I right? It's not that I don't love my family, my husband, my kids, my home. I do. Intensely. But I'm not here to make excuses for my feelings. I just want to share them and hope you understand. I'm not alone in this, am I? I do love my family. I'm so incredibly grateful for my life … [Read more...]

Stop Suicide Auction Preview

Auction Logo

You all have heard me shouting from the rafters that I'm doing The Overnight Walk for Suicide Prevention in DC in June. (Don't forget, you can donate in the left sidebar any time! or HERE.)  I know its going to be an amazing, life-changing event for me personally and to raise funds and awareness about suicide prevention. So far, I've raised $2,339! Thank you thank you all! And now I'm … [Read more...]

Seattle Mom Prom 2013 for #Postpartum Support

Mom Prom

Attention women of the Seattle Area! The Seattle Mom Prom an annual celebration of moms (a ladies-only, not moms-only event) is scheduled for May 18th, 2013 at the ​ Fremont Abbey (4272 Fremont Ave N, Seattle, WA). This event is a benefit for Postpartum Support International of Washington, a wonderful organization and a cause that is very near and dear to my heart. And let me just say this event … [Read more...]

The Power of Words


Words truly have power. The words we tell ourselves, but also the words we use with others. Words can hurt. AND Words can heal. Its up to us to choose wisely. The way we talk to ourselves--our own inner dialog--and the way we express our thoughts to others truly makes a difference. This is so important with mental health. Using words like "crazy" or "insane" do nothing to help … [Read more...]

Media, Moms & Medication #MentalHealth


Last Thursday I received a phone call from a producer at Anderson Live daytime TV show. "Hi Cristi. Would you be interested in being a guest on our show next Tuesday about the Parenting.com story Xanax Make Me a Better Mom." The story had gone viral and was making news. After panicking for a bit, I called my husband and then messaged a group of mental health and PPD bloggers I'm a part of. You … [Read more...]

Pushing Past Fear for #SuicidePrevention

The Overnight

I'm scared. In a few months time I'll be doing something so huge. Something so big that I know will be one of the top challenges of my life...mentally, physically AND emotionally. I'm committed to doing the Overnight Walk for the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention, but I've gotta tell ya, there's a huge part of me that is truly terrified...for many reasons. 1. I'm doing this … [Read more...]