In a few months time I’ll be doing something so huge. Something so big that I know will be one of the top challenges of my life…mentally, physically AND emotionally.
I’m committed to doing the Overnight Walk for the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention, but I’ve gotta tell ya, there’s a huge part of me that is truly terrified…for many reasons.
1. I’m doing this alone. I’m flying cross country by myself and will walk by myself surrounded by hundreds of people I don’t know. (Luckily I do have a few great friends in DC who I can stay with when I’m not walking overnight.) But I’m afraid of going it alone. Oh so afraid.
UPDATE: After writing this post just last night, a friend who I met via Twitter Jennifer @zrecsmom who I have also met once in person because of our shared connection as a survivor of suicide loss messaged me that she was scared but had JUST signed up for The Overnight. So I just might not be doing this alone! And that makes me so unbelievable proud of her and so very grateful. HERE is her fundraising page if you’d like to contribute to her too. And here’s a guest post that she previously wrote on this blog entitled “On Being a Suicide Survivor.”
2. I’m not physically ready for this. In fact, I’m having a hard time motivating to train. And 18 miles walking overnight is no small feat. Ugh. Ugh. Ugh.
3. I’m certain the emotional aspects of walking for suicide prevention will be incredibly difficult on me–a survivor of suicide loss and fighter of mental illness myself. I’m hoping it will also ultimately be empowering but that will not change the fact that this experience will be So. Damn. Hard. Emotionally.
But regardless, I’m taking the plunge.
I truly believe that nothing worthwhile in life is easy. Often times we have to push well past our comfort zone to make a difference. And for a person with anxiety like me, pushing past my comfort zone is Hard. Hard. Hard. But something in my heart is telling me I have to do this. So I’m doing it.
All of your loving and generous support has been wonderful. As of today I’ve raised $1,544 for the AFSP, and money for my travel to DC too.
Therafit Shoes has offered to “sponsor my feet” for the walk. We’re still working out the details of what that means but I’m grateful to the company for wanting to get involved in this incredibly important cause.
I’m hoping to keep the ball rolling and raise even more for suicide prevention. So please consider making a donation to my walk.
Every dollar counts. $1, $5, $20, $100…I don’t care how much you donate. I would just be thrilled and honored by your love and support. And if you personally can’t donate, please share my page with others.
This means so much to me.
My life has been touched so deeply by fighting mental illness and suicide. And I hope my passion shines through. I hope you see how important raising awareness is. How important fighting stigma is. How vital proper suicide prevention education and support is within our communities.
No matter how much we want to ignore it or wish it away, suicide affects each and every one of us, and our children. We don’t like talking about it or thinking about it (I truly don’t either) but chances are you or a loved one is grieving right now, today because of suicide.
So I’m trying to do something about it. Will you join me?