I truly can’t believe its been almost 11 months since I started this blog inspired by and in honor of my friend who died by suicide. Since the day I began writing I’ve been striving for many things. But most importantly I’ve been striving for better mental health, for myself and for others.
There are still days that my mental health is not at its best. When I need a time out of my own. When I depend on the love and support of my family and friends to get me through the day. But I keep striving because I know its important. I don’t want to let myself EVER get to the place that I’ve been before, that Dina was before she died.
So I strive for better days.
I strive to feel the love within myself.
I strive to be the best mom I can be for my kids.
I strive to be the best woman I can be for myself.
And I strive to give back to John what he gives to me every day, unconditional love.
Its not always easy (except loving my family, THAT is easy.) What is hard is letting myself have bad days among the good, and not feeling like I’m slipping. To continue striving for the good days when I’m within a bad moment. Giving myself permission to be less than perfect. Because really what IS perfect anyway? No one is perfect, but we can still be very good enough.
What are you striving for in your life? Are you looking for your calling? Are you trying to find your better self? Are you striving to be the person your family needs? Are you striving to be the person YOU need?
Keep at it, but know that you are good enough being YOU, bad days and all.
Today’s post is linked up at JustBeEnough. The writing prompt was “I am Striving…”
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I’m just so frustrated right now. I feel like I’m in this funk that won’t go away. I feel life is pointless. My anxiety is sky high, and even though it is I don’t want to increase my medication. I have these suicidal thoughts that won’t go away…but it doesn’t mean I’m suicidal. I hate the thoughts. I’m sick of them. I hate the depression. I hate the anxiety. Striving for better days when in a funk like this just seems so hard.
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I’m so sorry Pearl. I know what those days feel like. It’s good that you understand that having such days feel like. It can be so overwhelming to just want to feel better already. I’m sorry you’re having those bad thoughts. If they’re intruding upon you perhaps it’s time to change your medication. I know it’s not what you want, but none of this is. You deserve to feel as good as you can feel. Other therapies could help too. I’m thinking of you and sending good happy energy your way
Cristi Comes recently posted..What Are YOU Striving For?
There is not a perfect mom on earth. But there are lots of moms trying to do their best and loving with all their hearts, and even in the trenches of motherhood, when our best doesn’t feel enough, it.is.enough. Thank you for reminding us.
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The best we can do sometimes is to take one day at a time. Tomorrow will always be better.
Thanks for linking up with us this week!
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You’re welcome. Thanks for dropping by Kelly
Cristi Comes recently posted..What Are YOU Striving For?
It is hard getting through the bad days, but like you said, we have to always keep at it.
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I am looking for my calling. Thank you for being an inspiration!
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I LOVE that you put being the best for yourself on your list. So often we forget about ourselves and make it all about the other people in our lives and then no one really ends up with the best of us.
I’m striving for acceptance and mindfulness. It is hard, yo.
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I could say “ditto” to all this. And the fact that you are out there and you understand makes it much easier for me to keep striving for it.
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